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The Way I Used to Be
New York Times bestseller! In the tradition of Speak, Amber Smith's extraordinary debut novel “is a heart-twisting, but ultimately hopeful, exploration of how pain can lead to strength” (The Boston Globe).
Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn’t change who she was. But the night her brother’s best friend rapes her, Eden’s world capsizes.
What was once simple, is now complex. What Eden once loved—who she once loved—she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true, is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she’s supposed to tell someone what happened but she can’t. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.
Told in four parts—freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior year—this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman’s strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, all while learning to embrace the power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.
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Reviews
This opens your eyes to the ugly things our peers experience without ever knowing. Be kind tho those who self harm in any way, you never know what ugliness they have inside of them they're trying to cover up, ugliness that they don't deserve to have at all in the first place. Be kind. This book took me 35 hours to read. A day and a half! With two toddlers and 4 meals to cook and clean up! I still managed to finish this book in a day and a half. It was such an incredible read!
By Sclapper22
Beautifully written. Looking forward to reading the sequel
By rolyat246
i felt like i kept reading it, i couldn’t put it down. eden made me upset at times but i can’t even imagine what she must’ve been feeling.
By neeeeeeeeeeeessssssssssssssss
Coming from a 14 year old, there’s so much to say about this book. It’s so perfectly written!! The way each word pieced together and matched up later on in the book was incredible. I cried many times, not even cried, sobbed while reading the last few chapters. I cannot wait for The Way I Am Now to come out!! Amber smith, you’re just an amazing author!!
By NoName0891
i liked it idk but it was weird in some parts but idk it’s nice!!
By mattqqh